Posts by pamkw

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Do you remember when you first Googled "Jehovah's Witnesses"?

by Funchback in

i remember when i first googled "jehovah's witnesses".

i was sick to my stomach because i feared that i was disobeying jehovah.

although i was scared that i would find something "apostate" or "demonic", i still continued to click on different links.

pamkw

I also started out with webtv, I couldn't afford a computer back then. My mom had just dumped a load of guilt on me, about how her grandsons were going to die. So that was why she just could not be close to them. And it hurt that she thought I was a bad mom, because of her stupid beliefs. I had webtv for a year before I started looking, but the guilt drove me to it. I didn't type in jehovah's witnesses, I typed in ex-jehovah's witnesses. then I found out about the generation change in 95 and not one had told me. This was 98. I was so angry,but I felt so free. Once I realized that they didn't have a clue, and they were just making up shit, I felt like a huge weight lifted off me. I was so happy, I am a good mom, and I was not killing my kids. One of the first sites I found was freeminds and the old H2O. Later I came here, and have been off and on ever since. I am so much happier than I was back then, and I love the internet.

Pam

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Sims

by Insomniac in

anybody else here play sims?

if so, perhaps you'll understand exactly what's happened here:.

my boyfriend has given me the use of a computer at his house, so i don't get bored and fidgety when i'm visiting him there.

pamkw

I love the sims. All my best people are on my computer in Kansas. One of the first things I did when I got this computer is load sims on it. I have all the expansions except hot date ( which is my favorite), the disk for hot date had some kind of mistake on it. so I have to get a new one. Sims 2 is coming out on Sept 17. I can't wait. I have spent hours playing that game. And I have also had to delete everything on my computer before and start over. It is such a pain.

Sims rule!

Pam

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How Well Educated Are You?

by minimus in

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12 years of schooling (and never stayed back, either) for me.....and you?

?

pamkw

Finished high school. and I have taken many college courses, mostly computer, information tech related. I haven't actually gotten a degree, I was just lucky to get to go to any classes, and raise my two boys. I am now paying for my few adventures into higher learning, once I pay down some of my student loans, I might go back again. I really, really liked it. But I never stop learning and finding about things I don't know.

I remember wanting so badly to go to college right out of high school, and being told how stupid I was not to want to pioneer. Instead of knocking on doors, I ran out and got knocked up, (messed up 19 year old that I was). Never did pioneer, or even try too.

Pam

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Why don't J.W.'s celebrate Thanksgiving?

by hubert in

the first holiday of the season is coming up soon, and i was wondering why j.w.

's don't celebrate it.

it's not a bilbical event, as far as i know.

pamkw

My mom always said it was because "we thank God everyday, and don't need a speical day to do it." But she always ran out in November and bought up the turkeys that were on sale. And later she raised turkeys on their farm and my brother would dress them and sell them to people he worked with. And my mom was out there pulling turkey feathers out of dead birds to make extra money from their 'worldly holiday'. I have to admit they raised some monster birds that cooked up so fine. Mom always made sure they would save me at least one.

I always thought it was a way to be different, the "look at us, see we are not like you" thing going on.

Pam

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What Your JW Relatives May Realize

by metatron in

there's a lot of hurting manifest on this board.

i've been there, with witness relatives and friends shunning me ( more or less).. as you encounter these people, it may be easiest to kindly remind them of the near future of jehovah's witnesses:.

in ten years, the average witness will be about the same as any other religion.. .

pamkw

I agree, sometimes I think my mom might really care about me. Since I left Kansas last March and moved to Alaska, she calls me on the phone at least once a month. The last time we talked for over an hour. I guess moving away made her realize she missed me. But when we lived in the same area, I was lucky to get a hello from her. We no longer talk religion or anything like that, she has finally stopped trying to get me to come back, and just accepts me like I am. But it took moving thousands of miles away for her to do that.

Pam

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Drinks?

by Stefanie in

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friends

i need some drink ideas.

i know i was trying to quit, but i fell of the wagon sat.

i like orange juice and vodka, coke and jack.

pamkw

My favs are vodka and cranberry juice and grapefruit juice (a sea breeze) or vodka and grapefruit juice (a greyhound). but I can't drink anymore because of the meds I have to take for the seizures. I never drank that much, but now I miss it. I just hate being told no. Pam

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Ole Gog

by PopeOfEruke in

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i bet the brothers in brooklyn just lurrrvvvee google!

or gog of google!!.

jehovahs witness discussion forum - homepage.

pamkw

Well, you know they say the internet is an evil thing. What with all that thinking for yourself and other bad habits floating around.

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For My North American Citizens: DEAD SKUNK

by RAYZORBLADE in

dead skunk in the middle of the road .

pamkw

My sister's car was the next one in line after a skunk got squashed just a week or so ago. when I called my son, the first thing he told me about is how awful the car smells. that is one thing I do not miss leaving Kansas, skunks and tornados. Alaska is getting better and better all the time. Pam

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Just randomly underline study WT or book?

by Max Divergent in

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did you ever get into just doing random underlines and notes and all that on your study wt or books just to look like you?d studied it without ever having even looked at it before?

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pamkw

We had to study when i was a kid, because a couple other families would come during the week and we would all prepare together. We all lived outside of town, and we were supposed to be upbuilding each other. It was like a second book study, except we all had to take turns reading paragraphs. It was usually at our house, since my mom had so many kids it was easier for the others to come to us. I hated it. My step-father was playing at being a jw then, and would get on us if we couldn't read the paragraphs outloud properly. this went on for a few years, until the brothers became elders and ms, and my step-father let his true abusive nature show through. After that we only studied when my mom was on a zealous kick. After I had my oldest son, I would study off and on, but I wouldn't make him sit though the whole thing. I hated raising him jw, and I was glad when I finally gave it up, and he could be normal, but he was already 11 by that time. Later he told me it was all so stupid, he never paid attention. He has always been alot smarter than me. Now I too don't care much for organized religion. but I do like some of the music, so much better than the crap we used to have to sing.

I also used to draw in the margins during the meeting, make it look like I was taking notes or something. My favorite thing was to draw lines between the words down the page and see how curvey the line could get, then I would draw it back up the page to see if I could keep them from crossing. Doesn't take much to keep me entertained. I would also write comments about the person who was answering the question, like she is so stupid, what a bitch, I hope he gets his hand shut in a car door. Stuff like that.

Always waiting for the meeting to get over so I could have Sunday fried chicken at my great-grandma's house. It was the only thing to look forward too on Sunday.

Pam

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End of a truly horrible week

by pamkw in

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friends

here it is friday, and i am soo glad.

i have been away from the computer for a while because my computer was in kansas with my sister and i am in alaska, working.

i came up here to take what i hoped was a great summer job.

pamkw

I am in Ketchikan, I work the cruise ship dock for Princess tours. It is really a fun job, except for the standing. It is very beatiful up here. I have seen more wildlife here than I have ever before. I even saw a humpback whale once. Southeast Alaska is very green, because it rains alot up here. I am getting along much better being out of that house. group living is not for me. I had a great time at the movie. It wasn't bad, but I liked the first two better. I am still working on getting the boys up here. Hey Ray, good to hear from you. I was just wondering about you myself. How's your feathered friends? I had to leave mine with my mom. Lucky for them she loves birds. You know, I miss the noisy little buggers. but I am glad they are not here since the sun comes up at 4:00 am around here, and they like to start making noise as soon as it was light. I would never get any sleep. thanks everyone, for your support. Pam