I think you are having some kind of crisis. Probably because you were
a witness with you mom, and then walked away and jumped in the frying
pan with drugs, sex, etc.
That happens a lot
to jws who were told Armageddon is coming soon and a paradise earth
is just around the corner.
I was raised a
witness too, but never really accepted it. Like you I also need
evidence that Armageddon by God is coming soon but there really is no
evidence, just a book with ancient stories that most of the Western
world would argue it’s God inspired word, yet most don’t really
read it or follow it.
I think the fact
that you have a daughter is a good thing. You have someone that
depends on you. So you need to make sure she understands the world
she was brought in.
That means you need
to start researching subjects like history, religion, human nature,
evolution, and subjects that will help you understand why the world
is like it is. You also need to understand why God is not coming to
save us. Also stay away from drugs, meaningless sex, self harm, and
get help if you are thinking of suicide.
Be patient and try
not to despair so much. The Watchtower religion is not really a good
environment to grow in. It’s a religious Doomsday cult that
cultivates fear on it members. That’s why you mum and brother are
trying hard to get you back into the religion. They really believe
Armageddon by God is coming soon. And they believe God is going to
kill Billions of people.
As far as violence
in the world and volcanoes, and earthquakes, those things have been
happening long before the bible was even written. There hasn’t been
a century in history where some catastrophic event hasn’t happened.
And who knows what catastrophic event might happen in our time. But
that’s no reason you should stop from enjoying the things life
offers. Life can be amazing.
And you are right,
the universe is a huge place. With thousands of galaxies bigger than
our Milky Way Galaxy and with more Solar Systems bigger than our
Solar System. Who knows if different lifeforms exist out there
smarter than us.
Life is really
amazing. You need to make the time to continue seeing and learning
about it.
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