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  What's The Kindest Thing Anyone's Ever Done For You???

  by minimus in

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  sometimes we focus on some negative things about our lives and that often serves a helpful purpose in our healing.

  but if we concentrate on something positive, can you recall something that struck you for its kindness?

  one thing i will never forget is the men and women who went into action to try to save thousands of people in nyc on september 11th.

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  I remember when I had newly left the borg way way way way way long time ago and was going absolutely crazy with all manner of things worldly and was just lacking any type of parental guidance (as I was 17 at the time) I randomly met this older lady that had been the mother of one of my other decrepit friends. I recall her saying one thing and thats it but that one thing made me feel very good and it has stayed with me all these years. She looked at me one time (face full of piercings and all) and said, "it doesnt matter what you look like out there...you will always be loved in here". I only recall this cuz I looked the absolute worst that I had ever and even then there was someones mother that saw the kid that was there. It was a long time ago but it lasted a long time. I havent talked to that lady or even seen her in a long time but I remember her words...I think that was the nicest, kindest thing that anyone has ever done for me...or at least one of ones that stood out in my memory.

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  After JW, do you hunger for all the things you didnt do..simple things

  by LyinEyes in

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  being raised a jw, i honestly did not know what a great big world we live in.

  all the places i never went to see, things i wanted to do,,,, because i figured , i will just do that when the new world gets here.

  there was always going to be forever to do all the things that make life interesting.. i settled for the here and now as a good jw, meetings, field service, studying the same material over and over in the wt publications, and that was my life.

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  the simplest thing that I think I got from leaving the org was just that-the freedom to DO those things that I had hungered for...balancing those freedoms came much later..lol
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  Anyone here like jogging?

  by Elsewhere in

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  i started several weeks ago and all i can say is wow!

  what they say is true... it is very adictive.

  the natural high is amazing.

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  The wind through my hair

  the concrete passing beneath

  I feel free

  as the world passes at my feet

  nobody to say, "stop"

  nobody to tell me, "go"

  it is my life to decide

  each foot..blow by blow..

  Yah i have been runnin fer a while...it has become better than a shrink...cuz its all mine...nobody can take it away from me...anywayz...

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  I am so angry I am sick to my stomach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  by Ravyn in

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  i just had a jw come to my door and i had to threaten her to get her to leave!

  i told the woman right off i was 'apostate' and had no intention of changing it.

  she kept asking me personal questions which i told her were none of her business and she said she would have the elders come by and i told her that if they came by the better be wearing bullet proof vests!

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  Do you remember your last meeting?

  by freedom96 in

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  last meeting i ever went to was a memorial, 6 years ago.

  i remember it well, and it wasn't even my own hall.

  it was so boring.

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  i remember my last meeting..it was the one where they announced me as being disfellowshipped.."brother so and so has now been officially delcared disfellowshipped and is no longer one of jehovahs witnesses" i havent been back...i imagine that it is a fear that i will one day have to overcome...maybe I'll take in a memorial or somethin.

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  Are you an open person?

  by JH in

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  i was just wondering, are you the type of person that will give out all kinds of information on yourself, talk about anything to anyone just like an open book, or are you the type that says the least possible about yourself and often just answsers by yes or no when a stranger talks to you?.

  i'm the type of peson that doesn't hide anything when a person asks me a question.

  i will even say negative things about myself or errors i commited.

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  somewhat open...as has been said before I also have trust issues so i dont spill my life story to everyone I meet but I am open enough to meet new people and be open enough to TRY to trust...one person at a time...

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  access at home!

  by zanex in

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  i finally got myself a computer at home!

  now i have access to the net anytime i want basically!

  it is slow cuz only have dial up but its somting anyway.

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  lol I dont think that the rest of my life will stop now that I have a puter here at home but you are right, both of you, I am sure that my posts will probably go up a tad bit.. cud be worse tho! it IS nice tho..
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  access at home!

  by zanex in

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  i finally got myself a computer at home!

  now i have access to the net anytime i want basically!

  it is slow cuz only have dial up but its somting anyway.

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  I finally got myself a computer at home! Now I have access to the net anytime I want basically! It is slow cuz only have dial up but its somting anyway. Funny thing too my sister gave me the computer..it is her old one. It isnt really old she just bought it in 2000 which means that it is slow but otherwise functional. Anyway...this is zanex'z first post from HOME!

  -Z-
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  Finally did it...

  by zanex in

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  i finally sent off the 3 page letter to my parents that spelled it out for them...where i was in my life and where they fit into that.

  my pop had sent me an email initially that prompted my long-winded response to him.

  he opened the door for me to say what i wanted to say and i took it.

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  I guess only time will tell what happens and what results I can expect to see...thanxz tho..it WAS kind of hard sending that letter...hmmm head and shoulders above them...I LIKE the sound of that...
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  What's in a name? Teenyuck?

  by leddfootdja in

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  i find all the different aliases people use on here to be pretty entertaining.. what does your name mean to you?

  why did you choose it?.

  i assume teenyuck, for example = tina spoke by a young child.

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  zanex

  "Zanex"=6 months in a high security mental institution+high dosage of multiple talks + theocratic ministry overexposure

  (they made off with me marbles!)

  (sorry, just in one of those sort of odd moods)