Rowan and Gerard.
I was gone for a few days and only today read of your struggle.
I read the whole post and you have received lots of good advice, so I won't go there.
But rest assured that lots of people on this forum and a lot of people in your area, involved in treating you, really do care for you and love you and want the best for you.
There are all of us who care for you and all the folks you meet during your recovery, that want to see you free and happy and are willing to take the time to be honest and helpful as they work with you.
In a way, you are moving out of an unloving dangerous situation " the jw's world " to the real world we were told to avoid. The real world. With no elders or cultish behaviour filled with punitive threats and a constant flow of demeaning treatment.
No wonder we end up feeling useless. That is where they wanted us.
Outoftheorg