I was talking to my trying-to-exit-the-cult fraternal twin brother yesterday about life, the Jehovah's Witness cult, and our JW parents.
He repeated, calmly and succintly, that he hates our parents. I could not argue with him. I used to, being a parent myself. But I'm beginning to see his point. If this means I'm going backwards so be it.
He said he was especially affected by the beatings he saw me receive from my mother. He vividly recounted an incident where my mother mercilessly beat me in the backyard with a plastic baseball bat. Know what? I dont remember. He mentioned a long list of other beatings, I remember none of those, but I do remember some he doesn't know about.
My mother, who is clearly not well herself, and is known by many as the "bitch" of the circuit has told me that I criticize the Watchtower because I am mentally ill. That if only I could get on meds I'd be a happy worshipper of Jehovah again. I tell her that my problem with the Watchtower is informational, not mental. I told her that the two of us should go together for a psychiatric analysis and I bet she walks out with more meds than me, if they let her leave at all.
Wait. It gets better. Because of some decisions I've made recently in my personal life, my father told my brother that I am no different from the narcissistic gunman in the VATech shootings. I know I'm not perfect, but that comparison hurts.
Sorry all. There's a whole lot more. But that's good for now. I feel better.
I love you all!