Always remember that the issues are your parents and not yours. You are in no way to blame for their unkind, selfish, self-centered behavior. They were this way before you were born. Some people should no be parents...period.
Be proud of yourself, abusive behavior is generational....you have decided to break this cycle by seperating yourself from not only controlling parents, but a controlling religion. Your child has a wonderful future ahead of him. Vent away we are all here for you.
Leslie