Ok now that I am fully awake I can comment.
I have seen Jcanon posting for a few years, on another forum, it only took me one thread to figure out that I never wanted to read anything he posted again, so I have avoided all of your posts like the plague, however I saw that this thread was started by GBL so I took the bait, glad I did while I still don't agree with your religious views I am very impressed by your past, you are smart and talented that being said you have lot's of baggage and really need to get some help, if you could overcome the mental illness you would be unstoppable. Please keep us posted on well being. BTW Nice Legs!