I UNDERSTAND you HAVE CONNECTED OR ARE CONTINUALLY TRYING TO CONNECT the person who you really are with the one you HAVE DEVELOPED.. But one day your going to realize that you were dreaming 99.9% of it. Maybe you will say that your life was so screwed up that believing in the JIOR, and other things kept you from committing suicide. Maybe not. But the point is LIFE IS NOT FOREVER its so short. LIFE IS SHORT..Keep telling yourself JC. LIFE IS SHORT LIFE IS SHORT. START LIVING AGAIN START LIVING AGAIN START LIVING.AGAIN. Your too smart for your own good!!
Thanks, FedorE. I can see where you're coming from, but too many things are actually happening. What about the photo of the sign? What about the sleeping black face in the hand of the messiah? You're not addressing those realities. Plus your not addressing my research. Why am I discovering so much?
For instance, I probably should get some kind of recognition for discovering the true facts about the Thales eclipse. The experts don't think he could have predicted an eclipse nor any solar eclipse back then. I proved that they could and did! I suppose I just have to pursue it, but I think that's something. Plus the entire world of scholars are still using the fake chronology. I discovered Xerxes and Artaxerxes were the same person. So what gives? A lot of this is not related to prophecies or anything, just pure history.
Plus real people interact with me. I can't be imagining it all. No. Sorry. It's real. And Jehovah has done some things so that even I can't one day imagine it's all in my head.
At any rate, as far as finding out who I am and all, I was fortunate to do that and basically had a relatively happy life in the early years. I achieved a lot in my career as far as show business. I mean, I didn't get rich and famous but the experience was amazing. I got to travel, be on TV, work with Milton Berle. You know, for someone who likes the stage and producing shows it was grand. It was something I wanted to do that I actually got to do, that's the main thing. So I was happy with that aspect of my career. And, I must say, there was no real shortage of some incredible lovers. If you can share your life with someone you really click with, then it seems to just enhance everything. So I can't complain about the lack of love, though I know many people don't ever find that. I lived in Hawaii for a lot of my life and always in Honolulu so I was always just 10 minutes from the beach. Plus no meetings and no field service!!! It was great being out of the truth and knowing I wasn't ignoring Jehovah. My health has been relatively good too. So basically, I haven't had all that bad of a life after the trauma of finding myself. Not that all my issues aren't over. I'm having a great time bashing all the academic people out there who can't stop lying and scaming.
But even so, even if I'm having a fantasy life, as long as you're happy, what does it matter? If I'm dreaming, it's been fun! If I'm not, then that's better, because boy have I ever hit the jackpot!
Thanks for the reflection and advice. ONE FAVOR? What is your take on the photo of the "sign of the son of man" and how it matches the sleeping black face in the Revelation Book? Is that real or not? Can you see how that sort of complicates things, reality wise for me? Thanks!
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