Wow! I admit I don't read your posts as they are very long and religious in nature (I avoid religion like the plague). I am glad you are here and applaud your individuality. The visions concern me though, I hope you see a doctor about them soon.
changeling
Thanks, changeling! Much appreciated for your concern. BUT... for the moment, stay in my shoes (well heels?) for just a bit longer. I could easily think that my mind has snapped, I've been drugged or hypnotized. I mean, what defense does any of us have that are lives are not more than a dream? Like in the film, "The Matrix", where people were imagining their lives were real but it was the Matrix. So I don't discount these visions might not relate to anything real. Problem is the photo of the "sign of the son of man" was given to me. And I see why! Because we all can doubt our own conscious reality. We need something to prove it's not all in our minds sometime. Or even based all on our interpretation of the Bible. Thus even in the case of John the Baptist, who had every reason to believe that Jesus was the promised messiah, still John was given a sign from heaven at the time of Jesus' baptism, he saw holy spirit descending like a dove upon Jesus and the heavens were opened. Thus he had an extra-Biblical confirmation of what he believed was actually real with respect to heaven. Likewise in our day, along with the Bible, there was this promised "sign of the son of man in heaven" that was supposed to be seen by the anointed. Now this "sign" turns out to be a physical sign. Imagery in the clouds related to the second coming. Being physical, it can be photographed. It's not a vision. But once you have something like that, you now have to deal with explaining it, IF everything else is just a vision in your mind. So when you suggest I seek some professional help. I'm cool with that. Only problem is, how do you explain the photograph of the "sign of the son of man"? Which is REAL and part of the entire fantasy I'm going through? Basically out of the blue a skyscape photographer contacted me on the boards and openly associated herself with me. They board members had some of the same reaction as here. They thought I was using a fake name and answering my own posts as has been accused here! Same story. But that was not the case. We became friends and communicated privately. She lived in another state. I knew the date and time of the appearance of the sign at the second coming. It was December 26, 1992 in the afternoon. We both thought since this would celebrate the 7th year of the sign that it might reappear. So we both checked the skies during this time. She camped out and photographed the skies the full afternoon from 3pm to 6pm. Nothing showed up in my skies. And she didn't particularly see anything in her skies either though there was cloud activity. She sent me copies of the shoot and that's when I recognized the imagery of the sleeping black child and the descending eagle. I immediately recognized this matched the imagery found in the Revelation Book. Point being, now there is something phsyical that is part of this fantasy and imagination. So even if the photo was a coincidence and the sleeping black face in the palm of Jesus in the Revelation is just a fluke of illustration, I have to deal with that also. So I'm not just seeing visions here, I'm seeing images in Books and in photographs that other people are seeing as well. So it's not so easy for me to just say, "Oh yeah, I'm just on a psych trip, chill out." Then on top of all of this, my research has perfected the original timeline before the revisions during the Persian Period. That original timeline aligns events during our day that have to happen at specific times. Like 1947 and the return of the Jews. I'm not preaching here, but those are part of my "reality check" as well! I mean, I actually believe the Bible is being fulfilled. That this is real. And part of the prophecy was that this "sign" would appear after the "great tribulation" (i.e. the Holocaust) was over, and now, if this sleeping black face is the sign, then it is actually happening. Now you might ask, what makes me think this could be the sign that the Bible prophesied about? Well it may not be but it's consistent with it, because when the anointed (the eagles) see the sign, thy cry and beat themselves in lamentation over what they see. That is, they see something related to the death of the messiah. And that's matches this sleeping black child, since the child is not sleep, but he is dead. That's why they are crying rather than rejoicing. So again, another level of confirmation, for me, that this is real. So even if I want to cop-out under pressure and just imagine my mind is just dysfunctioning, Lord knows I've had my psychological issues during my life, I'm not able to make that quick of an exit here. There's more involved, namely the Bible and evidence of this sign, appearing for me but also for others as confirmed by its depiction in the Revelation Book. So, sure, I'd gladly take your kind advice and seek "professional" help with a psychologist, but it's not going to be an easy session when I bring along the Bible, the Revelation book and my photo of the sign. It's just too much dismiss as 100% coincidence. I think God undergood, though, that at one point we could question our own minds, which are imperfect, so he provided something tangible and physical, primarily for the believers, so they can get past that doubt and move on to more important things at hand. But let me tell you my prediction of what would happen if I sought professional help. The psychiatrist would think if was playing a joke. They'd see I'm not schizophrenic or delusional, maybe a bit of a religious fanatic, and throw me out of he office as a hoax. They'd probably confirm that I have actual memories of specific visions but how could they tell if they were generated by my own mind or by some supernatural force? Plus they know about possession and the demons and everything, so I think they understand some things are beyond basic science that can't be explained. That would be it. So that's why I likely won't bother with any professional intervention, unless I'm in a really practical joking mood. JC
