"I guess there are two kinds of Ex jws. The kind who after leaving believe there is no God or true religion, and want to tell as many as possible, so they can join in on the fun of being able to do 'bad/immoral' things. Then you have those who see things being done and taught against the bible, and out of a true godly fear/conscience leave or are DFed for making public that stuff."
Well, you got maybe 2 of 3,000,000 or so.
I am neither of the above. And I am very X jw. I am an individual, not to be sorted with a simple label like that. I most closely resemble the later of the two choices. But I ended up hating all religion - and the Bible is just a book of silly superstition to me these days. And, oh yea, to every hour you spent 'researching' I spent a month. Many here have.
I hate the supposition of those who arrogantly assume that most that leave are seeking to fornicate and drink and do drugs. No, that stuff goes on inside plenty. No need to leave for that. It is the thinkers who mostly leave.
Jeff