Okay, my last attempt to explain my position and who I was talking about.
Many do no longer believe in God or the bible. Let's be honest, that being the case, while being 'good' people, in the aspect of what you do in your lives and how you treat others, there would be little reason to abstain from fornication, etc, premarital sex, etc. It's natural to want to do that, most of us abstain because of respect for Jehovah and how it's only for while in marriage. Many of us have no desire to steal, murder, etc, but that's one thing hard to control ourselves on. Then there are those too who for some reason love to use profanity, and even many 'worldly' people don't. Then the holidays, what bad is in them? Fun, yes, only reason not to is out of respect for Jehovah. So those who do not believe in God or the bible anymore, I understand that your happy as you are now, just doing what you believe is right.
I still go to meetings, etc, the only reason, is I'm not being rash and waiting for Jehovah's direction. Based on my reading and studies, a huge list of things that no longer believe or agree with. I'm actually drawing more close to Jehovah, and my life is becoming even more strict lol. The reason I haven't left, is that trying to figure how Jehovah wants me to serve him. If I leave or get dfed, can't help any in the organization, as I very well know from being raised myself how dfed and or 'apostates' are treated.
Are told how many want to do their own thing, not lead moral lives, etc, and thats why look for fault to twist their reasoning and leave. ANd be honest, SOME DO. Not saying everyone who reads this meets that. Raymond Franz, and many from the association who had left, were literally because of conscience or trying to really serve God and were going to obey him vs man. I always thought that finding fault w/ history, etc, didn't change that now was doing all God wants from the bible.
Well, when on my own, never by words or sites from opposers. Started seeing how were going against the bible. Judging ones repentence, or how spiritual by 'works' of meeting, service. Not having the love Jesus taught, etc. Then the end times prophecies, and how many haven't happened yet, how many are talkinga bout today.
Then I saw how many are having their lives at stake now. Leading super clean lives, but JUDGING and NOT SHOWING LOVE, the way Jesus and the early christians taught. And read the condition of Gods people right up to the great tribulation, and what he intends to do about it. (IT WAS DEAD ON RIGHT) And the REASON for the great tribulation, and what exactly will be happening.
The bible started to really open up to me and I felt like being a JW was being fed milk, like your whole life all your taught can be done in 1 day, very very basic milk and never had whole food. I had awaken from a deep sleep and was starving for real spiritual food, and for months have been devouring it.
All this insight really scared me, as I was very very concerned for friends and family. When trying to talk to family about it, it was like the ancient Israels, thinking maybe had a demon, being blind to what trying to show, accusations, etc.
My insight brought to light so many things I had been lacking and not doing. Not showing true love, not supporting family, judging followers of God, not trusting in Jehovah for food/clothing, building up earthly treasures for myself as my thinking is based on USA thinking on riches, etc.
I am still getting tons of insight, and dont' expect to get a clear picture of what Jehovah would will me to do until done showing all he wants to. Until then, trying to lead by example among the JW. For example, one didn't have any food, is loosing everything, his OWN FAMILY won't help him, has had to sell most his possessions, and his mom said well you shouldn't of missed the meeting. He can't even buy gas. His congregation and friends supposedly know and no help. I am in a tough situation, but sent him a gift card, and trying to encourage him to read the BIBLE.
My own relatives, some also going through real hard time, and family isn't helping family. Or in the congregation love not being there, etc. So for the moment trying to lead by example, and if anybody asks anything or is really down or being treated bad, just really trying to get them to read the bible, go to Jehovah, and to understand he may have some insight for them in it.
I came here, because of the road I've been on, and seeing if any others in this place too. Was hoping to find some who saw what's not being done according to Jehovah's word and been learning the real truth too. So my 'disappointment' was just in that looks like for the most part those who realize all being done isn't the truth threw in the towel and just doing what they feel is right and that even the bible isn't God's word or he exists.
When getting the real light and Jehovah's direction in the bible, and how it works, you KNOW it's not man's word, how it is perfectly describing what's going on right now, and at the same time is unseen by most.
The sad part, is that if you don't believe in it or God anymore, if your enjoying your life right now, what it's shown me is coming, is FAR WORSE then what is taught by JW's. What's taught is that just a great tribulation is coming, once it starts it should be fairly bad but quick, then armagedon. Only thing waiting for is religion being destroyed worldwide.
What is going to happen, is MUCH MUCH more detailed, and much scarier. The scriptures even mention how people would be looking forward to Jehovah's day or wishing it would hurry up, but that those people are not even in the right spot in Jehovah's eyes and how dare they wish it would hurry up, they themselves would perish if so. So yes, when these things begin to happen, (most of the things are set in place to trigger it), gonna feel for those who have no hope at all. When they do though, many will still have a chance to repent and draw close to God during the great tribulation. (but there is a difference prior and after)
