Wow, too many responses to respond individually, but I'll answer what was the majority of questions.
First, many are thinking I am still blindly following the organization, if I was, why would I have made those statements to the active JW's? I see a wrongness for the most part on both sides.
Those who were offended or why I made claims some had left looking for an excuse to be immoral. That was based off of some threads about when leaving the organization have you been naughty or nice, or what did you do when you left, etc. Out of many of your own mouths. I did not see answers that were just against the 'human' understanding and teaching from them, but many that were flat out against the scriptures of 'any' bible. But seeing as how many don't believe in God, or the bible anymore, I guess that makes sense.
For those asking why would the truth only be revealed to certain ones and not everybody. Can you all agree that most of the worlds problems are due to corruption? How people have attained positions, by lying and having ulterior motives, and once there the problems occur? The bible was written so that when Jehovah and Jesus see right heart condition, those really having faith, seeking out, etc, they can get understanding. If everything was black and white, then someone could try to follow or do the things to get saved, and also that it would be just words on a book. To help filter out and on the day of judgement those will really know based on their choices their judgement is true, and the faith building on those who are getting understanding that makes more sense then anything, that isn't even being taught, that no doubts it's from God.
There is only one way I can think of describing it. Once learning how what was taught was not the full truth, the picture gets shattered. Then your given a box filled with hundreds of pieces of a puzzle. As you look at each piece, they do not make sense, and quite hard to understand. As your putting the pieces together (more then just the bible may be parts of the puzzle), then slowly your getting an understanding of what it is. As you get towards finishing it, all of it comes together and it becomes really clear.
My 'story'. Raised as a jw, and fairly young was into the end days prophecies. Started doing research into them, and when looking up in revelation book, etc, could not accept that most of them had already happened. It appeared many were still due to happen in the future. Few years went by due to sickeness ,etc, then got back into it again. Doing major heavy research and reading, and saw how most of the prophecies WERE for the future and didn't happen back in 1918 to 1930's. Then trailed all the teachings, so see if faithful slave was as was told, and from bible reading, etc, definitely not. Then had deep prayer and more research, and all my questions were being answered in the bible. If the preaching would be done worldwide, WHY were JW's doing it, and Jehovah showed me in the bible an explanation of how it was being accomplished, even if not approved of many things they were doing. Then also the reasons understanding was not being given, and the sins they were committing, then a TON of scriptures opened up answering those questions. I got really freaked out one night when prayed to make sure i was not imaging this, then in less then 5 minutes I read this, Hosea 10:13 "you people have plowed wickedness. Uprighteousness is what you people have reaped. You have eaten the fruitage of deception, for you have trusted in your way, in the 'multitude' of your 'mighty ones'. An an uproar has arisen among you people, and your own fortified cities will be desolated. In the day of battle a mother will be dashed to pieces alongside her own sons. In this way one will certainly do to your people, o "bethel" because of your extreme badness". - perhaps that will encourage many to reread bible and look for answers with prayer. I was then and still am to this day, doing tons of reading, research, and notes, and each day more understanding. When talking to family, all of a sudden the responses and accusations, then seeing how identical things were happening to me as Jesus said would happen and his apostles. First time ever getting the persecutions was told would get when really trying to follow him. That's a very 'condensed' story.
If many were expecting the persecutions, bad things from elders, or being DFed, etc which got me to this, I went through a LOT of bad things from my childhood on, accusastions, treated bad by elders when was just my mom and sis, etc. Being completely innocent, yet treated bad and harshly, never any help, etc, things which would of made many have just left long ago. The most it did was further encourage and show me how the love has cooled off and to seek answers why I saw more love and kindness in those who don't know the truth then in the organization. Yet after finding all of this out, I did not just say okay it's all a bunch of nothing, I see good in it. I can understand and relate to many who gone through this, and it helped refine me. Now I am much more of a slave to Jehovah and Jesus, even though mentally free, if you look at Jesus and his apostles, they didn't enjoy a freedom of human pleasure. I know that all the sacrifices I am now making, are not worthly of the rewards from Jehovah, and it's the very least should be doing.
