So today was my first sunday meeting that I didn't go with my wife. As an update she has decided not to move out right now...because she doesn't have anywhere to go. But she is giving me the silent treatment. I'm trying to be loving and tell her i love her throughout each day. I've been doing things for her, making sure she has a lot of relaxation time.
But I'm getting nothing back. Last night she went out with one of her "worldly" friends and got drunk. She took a cab home. So this morning she got ready for the meeting with the kids and I drove her to her car. I transfered the kids into the car and took her hand and said, "I know this is a really hard day for you, and I want to make it as easy as possible. Is there anything I can do to help." She gave me a stink eye and said, "You're the one in control of this whole thing. You know EXACTLY what you are doing." So I said, "Well, if you think of anything I'm here for you and I love you. I tried to give her a peck on the lips, but she pulled away, got in the car, and drove off.
I stood there in stunned disbelief. She's always been the most loving person I've ever known. Now it is like I'm a stranger.
Something that made it hard this morning too is that my son asked me, "Daddy why don't you go to the meetings anymore?" Although she denied it, I have a feeling it came from her. I just told him, "I have some work to do today, buddy." He then said, "But why won't you go to meetings when you don't have work?" I didn't know what to say...My wife gave me the "You disgust me!" look and walked away.
What do I say to a 5 year old about why daddy isn't going to meetings anymore?
Anyway, I HATE HATE HATE what this religion does to families. I would never do it...but it makes me want to burn down that stupid hall.