How could you, a supposedly all-intelligent, reasoning being, blame me for questioning or not believing? You know that for many years I sincerely sought truth and tried to believe 100%, but there were always major unanswered questions and things that didn't seem right.
If you say I should have believed because of religion, then I ask Why? I was a JW. They seem progressively more wrong and less believable as time goes on (could write a book on that). Their history is full of outright wrong teachings, loonie teachings, failed prophecies, etc. If you say 'look at nature', I say that I did, and I saw evidence of millions of years of horror, misery, and suffering. Nature is all about survival. Even so-called pretty flowers are "pretty" because they're screaming for survival. Their bright colors are screaming for insects to pollinate them lest the species die. Nature is cruel.
Please, before you destroy me, give me the reason(s) why I should have believed.