Topics Started by kat2u
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17My best JW's friend baby passed away
by Eyebrow2 inhe was only 5 months and 1 week old...he was not breathing when they woke up on wednesday, and they tried cpr, but it didnt work.....i am so sad for them.
she was the sister that studied with me before i was baptised, and also the best friend i ever had, in or out of the jws.
she moved away from about 4 years ago, and we had only spoken a few times on the phone since then.. a mutual friend of ours called me yesterday morning and told me.
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My heart is ripped out !!
by Puternut ini am absolutly miserable !.
i am a newbie here, some of you have seen my posts.
and for those of you, who are old timers, this is no news to you.
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Welcome, Andy, he doesn't bite.
by FlyingHighNow inandy has joined jwd .
i thought i would introduce him to you.
his nickname is shaft.
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I need help with a life changing decision
by Matt_2k inmy family used to be jehovah?s witnesses up until i was about 6 years old, for reasons unknown too me they left.
when the events of september 11th unfolded they started going back to the meetings, myself included.
it started out ok, i was keen to learn, but the more i learnt, the more i realised that a lot of the predictions and teachings did not make sense, so after about 9 months i stopped attending the meetings and eventually stopped being involved all together.
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Why Depression Sucks.
by shamus inbecause you can make jokes and appear "happy" at the drop of a hat, meanwhile, you're being chewed up from the inside out.
because you can't learn to take one day at a time because your good days are always overshadowed by knowing that you're going to just slip back down again.
it's inevitable.
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The Drive Home Tonight,Crying.
by Blueblades inlet's see,where do i start?i decided to have a quiet drive home after work.it takes about one and half hours.no cd playing,no talk radio,no news, just a quiet drive listening to my own thoughts.i'm not concentrating on any one thing,just kind of letting my mind flow wherever it wants to.. then it starts,my mind goes back to when our children were small.as i'm driving i am having this flashback,i'm going to save my family from dying at armageddon,why the little ones are dependant on us for their future life happiness.. there will be no birthday parties,holiday celebrations,even though one of them was born on the 4th of july.no extra-curricular activities at school,and everyone will know that they don't salute the flag,nor sing the national anthem.and at the infirmary they know that they are not to take blood.. after school homework,the preparing for meetings,more studying comes next.no tv.
tonight,it's a meeting night.oh goody,the weekend is here,now we can go out and play.sorry,we have to go out in field service,mommy and daddy will show you how to have so much fun in the field service on saturday and sunday.. i start to cry,literally,there is real pain in my chest and a lump in my throat.as i have this flashback on the drive home tonight.i think of how i robbed my children of their childhood,i'm getting very emotional and angry,a picture flashes across my mind of all those years,30 plus,that i lost for my wife and children.the opportunities that we turned down,we are going to survive armageddon!.
i have had a talked with my family about my regrets over having put my family through this before and they don't blame me.they feel that i was doing what i thought was the best for them at the time.they forgive me,but i having yet forgiven myself.. the family says that they learned something about life,religion etc.that the experience has not made them bitter,and they have moved on.the children are happily married and doing fine.my wife and i are doing the best that we can with what time we have left.we are in our sixties,no retirement or pension fund.taking it day to day.. this is what happened on the quiet drive home tonight,it's been a year and a half of being inactive and still the flashbacks of the past 30 something years in the watchtower and all of what that has entail in raising my family still wells up inside me when i try to rest my mind and think of nothing.. i cried all the way home for one and a half hours,pain in my chest and heart,my head feeling like it would explode,angry at the society for the big chunk of life that they stole from us.. and i thought of so many others sharing the same feelings and experiences as my family,and those still stuck inside.soon as i arrived home,i collected myself together and said:"hi honey,i'm home!
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How old were you when you left?
by somebodylovesme ini only know a handful of witnesses, but i do know several ex-witnesses.
all of them left in their late teens, which (as i've read here) is pretty common.
i know there are a lot of people here who left later in life.
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grand baby
by kat2u ini have had a new grand baby born this last week and have been told that i will only be allowed to have a relationship with my granddaughter if i am in good standing with jehovah{elders}.this is my only grandchild since this same daughter when not a jw had a little boy who passed away .i was the one to be there holding her hand then.and now im not allowed!
i am so hurt and angry.. then my mother has now decided that she will not allow me at my parents 50th wedding anniversary.my dad is not a witness.i am being closed out.i want to lash out at the elders and my mother.she has been a great influence on my daughter and her new husband.. i want to write her a letter,but i think no matter what i write she will feel "just" in her "persecution".
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I am having seizures.
by avishai ini hope i am not sounding like a whiner.
i just started having them in earnest a few weeks ago, & have had funny little tremors for some time.
i am going to the neurologist on monday, & want to get on disability, because working @ a group home w/ severely emotionally disturbed kids gets me hit in the head a lot, which can cause adult onset epilepsy.
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