I think you are dealing with it admirably dear Purps. Like you I feel I wasted a lot of time and effort unnecessarily, which I could have spent better elsewhere. However 99.9% of the people I have met here have been incredibly rewarding in terms of friendship and are easily worth a dozen of the ones that turn out to be fraudulent.
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Friendship, Trevor, and Oscar!
by purplesofa ini had no reason to ever question the validity of who trevor and linda were.
i believed.
isn't that what friends do, trust?
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I don't know how to feel about this...
by coolhandluke ini know in this current climate of hoaxes this may not be received well.
i don't really care.
i'm real and what i'm about to say is real.
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Killing your bratty sister - you have such a turn of phrase!
I think Bisous is spot on, as always...sigh. How did she get to look so gorgeous, have superb business acumen, be supremely intelligent and have such humanity I'll never know, but always be thankful.
You've kind of answered your own question. You are guarding your heart and that is why you don't feel as much as you might otherwise and you have had to do this to protect yourself. I sometimes try and imagine how I will feel when the news comes that one of my parents has finally passed away and I just can't feel anything. I imagine perhaps this is a little of how it is for you.
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Trevor Alert!
by JWdaughter inon a recent discussion on topix, a person there was making some claims and some lies and then laughing and joking about how all apostates are so gullible and it is so easy to make up stories and mislead.
their point was about the bible and our 'experiences'.
since that is so fresh in my mind, i think that one thing this 'eagleeye' poster stated that you might want to be aware of was that soon very soon they plan on pulling a big one over on apostates and then writing some tell all book about how stupid(we) all are(he used the word "hoax" more than once, if i recall).
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Well he did say last night on the phone that he planned to write a book ...
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Its Sirona: Update and Hello Again
by Sirona infirstly i'm sorry i haven't posted here for a while.
i've missed you all!.
i just thought i'd post an update for those who know me.. gary and i are fine (he posts here as diamondblue1974), we are still amazingly in love and i still maintain that he is the greatest man ever!.
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So good to hear from you and happy that both of you are enjoying being all loved up! I am planning an imminent puppy-napping!
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How do you know...
by coolhandluke inif your so is cheating on you?
well, she's not my so anymore.
she decided a few days ago that she didn't have it in her to continue the relationship.
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i've said it before - all i want in a relationship is to be loved, to be touched, to be appreciated, to be stimulated. moreover, that is what i want to give. but it has to be equal. i can't always be 80 and you be 20. i can't.
True. But remember we are all human and therefore incapable of our share of equality at times. Sometimes one person is better at loving, touching, appreciating and stimulating than the other and depending on the time and circumstances. Sometimes one person has to hold back and just allow the other the freedom to explore and be themselves. Its all in the nature of love. Our waves dont always break with equal force and sometimes our waves don't even break on the same shore. Sometimes accept a little 70 30 or 40 60 or even 90 10 and treasure the 50 50 moments, because they are rare in my experience.
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Hey QL! not having a lie in? ;-)
Gill - i did post about it a little while ago - maybe July time. Will be in my topics history no doubt. Basically I've been prescribed a variety of drugs to try and get me sane and stop self harming. The first one made me into an insomniac and i dropped 20lbs in 4 or 5 weeks and I was just high all the time, but it was not a sane place to be and I put myself in harm's way more times than I care to remember and didnt come off completely unscathed from the experience of trusting strangers too naively but it could have been a lot worse and I wouldnt be posting now.
At this point in time I am on a different drug called Mitazapene or something which has opposite effect of drug number one and now I am eating way too much and sleeping maybe 19-20 hrs a day, well its like sleeping only its more like being paralyzed so I can think very quickly and my heart races and drums but my body feels paralyzed and I have to talk it into movement one eyelid and fingernail at a time. Its like dreaming but I am awake so its really my imagination. Very confusing and disorienting. I havent been to work since August and probably have failed my foundation part of my degree because on drug no 1 i couldnt hold a pen without shaking or sip tea without spilling it or read a whole line of a book without the words sliding off the page and into the never never, let alone hold a thought long enough to write it.
No one is checking on me really as I have my phones switched off. But I get the odd email from Hemp Lover and CHL and pokes on facebook from free2think and richie rich (where I am most likely to be found), so that keeps a connection with the outside world and I speak to Timbo every few days on msn so he knows I'm still alive.
Its really not as bad as it sounds - I was raised as a fundamentalist JW - therefore a natural introvert. Unfortunately now it seems I have ran out of the Funds and just become A Mentalist. (I am at this point restraining any insane laughter - no really! Keep the strait jackets away!)
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Thank you everybody for thinking of me. As you can see and as has been already verified by dedpoet and timbo I am alive if not exactly kicking. At the moment I am kind of rendering myself no part of the world for our mutual safety, plus I'm not really in the right state of mind to contribute positively here just now. I hope you understand.
I'm not disliking my self imposed exile and as of today it will be 5 days since I last opened my mouth to speak or saw another live human being. I feel safer this way at present.
I am however looking forward to getting well so I can get back to work and then come to Dallas for the new year fest and i will be delighted to see any who can make it.
On the flip side I think in my prescribed medicated lucid dreaming state I think just conceivably I may have given birth to something overnight. Maybe. I hope so.
Thinking of you all fondly.
Nina x
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Did God intend Adam and Eve to wear clothes?
by cultswatter inat first adam and eve were content being naked.
adam had a lot of time on his hands so he designed a living room suite complete with couch, coffee table and reclina.
the trouble is that adam would every so often forget to wash after taking a big dump and eve would curse the hell out of him for leaving a big brown streak on the white couch.
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Such an informative thread could not fail to catch my wandering eye.
I got to thinking if i was God and I just created two perfect human beings I would definitely want them naked. Then again if I'm God don't I get xray-see-through-clothes/fig leaves power anyway?
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Where were you when the planes hit?
by coolhandluke init f*cks me off that this happened only a few years ago but no one in my office has yet to even mention it.
it was such a pivotal event:.
i was driving from fontana to chino in california dressed in service clothes.
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I was in my office and it was around lunchtime when my boss's wife called and said she needed to speak to her husband urgently and I said he was in a meeting. She was extremely excitable and panicked and asked me if I had seen the news. I flicked onto sky news on my computer and then just held my mouth in horror as they showed what had happened. I told her i would get him to ring her back straight away. Then I stood up and told everyone in my office to be please be quiet - there was some very very terrible news and then I told them that a plane a flown into the world trade centre. No one believed me - they though I was making a sick joke. Not until they saw it for themselves. I was the only one with internet at the time with video audio streaming so I just spent the whole day in shock announcing what was happening to everyone else.
As soon as my day was done I went down to the second floor grabbed hold of my best friend Simon and just clung to him. I thought it was the end of the world even though I had been out of the dubs for a while. We ran silently to the nearest bar the Porter and Sorter which was teaming with people around the huge screens. We bought drinks and I told him for the first time that I really loved him and we just sat hugging. Its funny I have no idea where my boyfriend was that day, but odd that I didn't feel the need to be close to him.
Simon is coming over from Australia where he moved a couple of years back to stay with me for a few weeks and take care of me whilst I am not doing so well. I just remember him holding me as I cried in horror in the bar watching people fall from the buildings and held me when I came back from throwing up with the sheer shock. At the back of my mind I think I was thinking if the world is going to end then I want to be here in a smokey bar with my friend for any last moments.
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What unapproved song did you like/sing while a dub?
by What-A-Coincidence inwac used to sing this one while in service.. .
sisqo - thong song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=op3bzzlgblo.
wac (former bethelite for 10 years and elder).
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Haha, Gopher! Thanks for that article. As if Male Chauvinistic Patriarchal society is not what the dubs are founded upon and continue to reiterate.!
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