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The meeting tonight was UNBEARABLE
by Orgull in
1. jw
2. experiences
i had my tms tonight.

for those who don't know me, i no longer believe, but have only just begun my slow fade.. the meeting was unbearable.

first there was the brother who happily pointed out that i'd missed two meetings recently and that he was keeping track.
37
I finally took my stand.
by Orgull in
1. jw
2. experiences
i just missed two meetings for the first time in five years.. this past week i went "on vacation", housesitting for relatives nearby.

i told my bookstudy overseer i'd be "away", even though i was only a twenty minute drive from the kingdom hall.

i spent the entire week away from my insane family, away from the meetings and away from my "brothers and sisters".. it felt great.. coming home felt... not so great.. but the first brick in my fade has been laid.
12
I just walked 4.6km and I feel great.
by Orgull in
1. social
2. physical
i am extremely overweight (280lbs.

several friends suggested walking.

we have a 'rail trail' near the house here that goes all the way to two towns over, about 30km long.
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I am stuck in a life I don't want and can't see the way out
by Orgull in
1. jw
2. experiences
some of you have encouraged me already in the week or so i've been here and i think you.. here's the situation.

i am single.

i am 34 years old.
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Is the Watchtower magazine's stated circulation actually erroneous?
by Orgull in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
i just changed my order of magazines at the counter to the bare minimum.

me, my dad, my friends, heck everybody i know throws out a large bag of unused watchtowers and awakes every few months or at least once a year.

then it hit me.
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If death is the result of sin, why do animals die?
by Orgull in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
my first week of posts here were very serious and all the wonderful, encouraging replies helped me very much.. so now i want to ask something semi-frivolous.

(actually it's one of the many things that don't make sense to me about "the truth").

why do animals die?.
5
My friend was DF'ed 7 years ago - lost touch now
by Orgull in
1. jw
2. friends
i was a good soldier, i shunned her like i was supposed to.

she applied for reinstatement several times but was rejected.

as far as i know she's still df'ed.. i have no idea where she is now or how to find her.
78
Have you ever faked a service report?
by Orgull in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
it's only my third day here so, go easy on me.

lol.. seriously, my new doubts have made it harder and harder to go in service.

a few months ago, when a new month rolled around, i realized that i hadn't actually gone in service at all the previous month.
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I don't feel angry or resentful, do you?
by Orgull in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
i'm new here (my first post yesterday: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/12/138721/1.ashx) and i've noticed only one thing that i don't have in common with a few people here.. i'm breaking free of my beliefs after more than thirty years and i feel great.

i feel calm, free and in control.. i feel no anger, resentment or hate towards my so-called brothers and sisters or towards the fds or the organization.

i don't see the point, it doesn't help me any.
45
I had no idea there were people who felt like me
by Orgull in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
i've recently begun challenging my beliefs.

all my beliefs, including those ingrained in me as one raised "in the truth".. a few years ago i sought therapy for chronic depression and my treatment was remarkably successful.

as a side effect, things that used to "work" for me no longer fit with the new emotional pathways and strengths i was developing.