Thanks Minimus, how nice to open an old wound.
You bet it disturbs me knowing I did this to them! But what is done is done and I have to move beyond this. My course of action now is to not allow my younger son to attend programming sessions anymore, and with my older boy, well they really got him already, so I just plant seeds of doubt when I can and give him lots of opportunity to slack off his JW activities when he wants to, and many times he does. It’s really all I can do at this stage.
The only thing that keeps me sane, or relativity sane, is that each day I do a little something to carry on the fight against the dark tower and win my family back from this cult.
Very few days go by that I don’t ponder what would things be like if I didn’t ask to study the Bible. Yes I initiated it! Christ THAT WAS THE WORST MISTAKE I EVER MADE IN MY LIFE, WHAT THE FU*K WAS I THINKING!
Nobody can begin to know the level of guilt a parent feels knowing full well that it is because of them that their own child is now part of this deadly destructive cult. I would never wish such a thing upon anyone.
Freeman