Hi jurs,
I feel exactly the same way as you do.
I wasn't raised as a JW either but I fell for their teachings when they came to my door.
I also regret deeply what I put my kids through with the org.
The WTS certainly is good at manipulating people and circimstances.
Don't think you fell for the WTS lies because you were stupid though.
As was already brought out, some verry inteligent people were also duped.
I think many people have gotten involved with the WTS because they wanted to believe
the things they were taught.
It all sounded so easy. Black and white.
We didn't have to think for ourselves.
All we had to do to please God was do as the WTS said.
It was all done for us. All we had to do was follow.
Plus the fact that we had no way of checking the WTS out.
Computers weren't available to everyone when I became involved with them.
I don't think there was much written info. on the WTS either.
So I think it was much easier for the WTS to recrute new members from all walks of life
up until a few years ago.
Now we have the computer as well as books written by people that were involved with
the WTS first hand.
So don't beat yourself up to badly because of the WTS.
We can't change the past but we can control our future.
neyank