(((((Gumby))))) I like the Depends idea.
You know, I think I had it easy. Only my parents and my uncle were Witnesses and they all died before I left. Well, Dad died a year after I left, but he was used to the idea of me not going and only handed out half-hearted guilt trips. I can't imagine how hard this is for you, Gumby, and all I can say is this: do what feels right in your heart. Only you know what that is and whatever you do, we're all behind you (but not too close if you put that cat poop on you).
Lots of love,
Nina