I got home from work last night and guess what happened while I was gone?
My wife tells me she called the presiding overseer to set up a time for all of us to talk about our premarital no-no's.
"Really? Is that right?" I asked her. She said, "You think I backstabbed you?" I replied, "I never said that. You're putting words in my mouth."
Then I asked her, "Did you talk to your sister and her husband about our conversation the other day?" "No," she replied, looking at the floor. "You're not looking me in the eye," I said. She then made a feeble attempt at eye contact while saying, "I didn't talk to them about it." Her eyes went back to the floor before the sentence was finished.
Thinking about my next possible step (disassociation), I said, "I think this may be a good thing."
Later that night we had a long talk about all kinds of WT-related things, from their history of false prophecies to their child abuse cover ups. She defended them at every turn. "You really hate the WT Society, don't you?" she asked. "You're putting words in my mouth again," I said. "I'm just stating facts."
I will say the one line of reasoning I used that really got her was about disfellowshipping. I told her I don't agree with it. I said, "Of all people who should be DF'd, shouldn't Satan be the first? And yet, in the book of Job, there he was, standing among God and the angels, coming and going. It was thousands of years before he was cast out, according to the WT Society." "It wasn't thousands of years," she said, before stopping to think. "Well, maybe it was thousands..." she continued, actually letting some wheels turn.
She said she knew she had the truth. I pointed out that her mother's Mormon friend says the exact same thing about his religion. She agreed that the Mormon teachings are nuts. I said, "But that's all he knows. He totally believes it."
I didn't get much sleep last night. Things are definitely coming to a finale. Heading everyone off at the pass and DA'ing is looking to be my best option right now. I think it will totally shock my wife. But hey, she went behind my back and did what she wanted. I was at the point anyway where I didn't care if I was DF'd or not. DA'ing, in my opinion, will give me that sense of control over my own life and take the power away from the elders. And really, it's the only way to get out from under the mind control and give my child a shot at some normalcy. I will miss some people, but hey, I don't need to carry on with something I don't believe in anymore anyway.
I have a really positive feeling about all this.