Welcome Dothemath,
I have just found your thread now. Although I am a Newbie like you here, I was disfellowshipped for "apostasy" nearly 18 years ago. Like you I didn't want to leave the organization, because all my friends (and several of them very dear) were there. Nonetheless I understood that it would happen.
When I realized my views of the organization and its teachings had changed, I resigned from my translator work in the French Bethel and resumed my "special pioneer" service in Paris, desperately hoping to concentrate on the kind of "basic teaching" you were speaking about. This I could you during four or five months, and it was really a great time: doing Bible studies which were really Bible studies (without the "help" of the Society's literature). I never preached against the organization's teaching (only letting people draw rather different conclusions from their own Bible reading). However, I eventually found myself before a judicial Committee requiring a "yes or no" answer to a prescribed series of questions (1914, the two hopes stuff and so forth). Ironically enough, the hearing which began by the remark "We heard you're talking a lot about Jesus" ended with disfellowshipping on the grounds of 2 John 9-11 (not remaining in Christ's teaching).
In view of that painful though great experience you reminded me, my friendly advice would be: enjoy your "last days" in the organization, make them as enlightening as possible to those who love, be careful enough to make them last as long as you are conscientiously able, but know that they will probably have an end and get emotionally prepared to it.
Take care,
Narkissos