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  Already it starts.

  by Fleur in

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  my grandmother hasn't even been put to rest yet and already, my mother starts with "you know that grandma's greatest wish was for you to get reinstated.".

  then, one of my siblings tells me that another of my siblings not only said she wouldn't come to grandma's memorial if i went but also that sibling who called me should not still be talking to me; even though i called her to tell her that grandma died.. i am facing the fact that my family may not even give me details of the memorial directly because they won't want me to go.

  i don't know if i want to go to another funeral that is really just a commercial for the wts instead of talking about the person who is gone at all.

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  I lost her.

  by Fleur in

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  my beautiful, sweet, loving, kind grandmother passed away today.one of the only three people in my life who ever loved me unconditionally.

  at the end they tell me she was not struggling, but for weeks before that, she did.

  she suffered, horribly.

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  Millions now dying will never have lived.

  by Fleur in

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  this phrase has been going through my mind over and over for the past few days and finally made its way out onto paper, and then here.

  as my beloved grandmother, a "faithful witness of jehovah" has hovered between living and dying for the past few weeks now, i have asked myself again and again what is the justice in her surviving all the things that she has in her 80+ years to come to the end of her faithful service only to be another casualty of the jw policy on blood.

  i think about the fact that for almost sixty of those 80+ years she has lived and would have died at any point for her faith in the "faithful and discreet slave.

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  JW's commit the biggest sin IMO, wasting time pretending that...

  by Fleur in

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  people who are alive, are dead.. in their half witted brain washed wtbts indoctrination, they are taught that they have to shun people they love if they find themselves out of the borg's good graces.

  doesn't matter what the 'crime' is, could be simply disagreeing with something in a wt article, could be any one of a million things.

  it's not always the "big f" that gets people disfellowshipped.

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  Has anyone heard from Dedalus?

  by Fleur in

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  i've had him and his family on my mind lately, wondering how he is and i miss him.

  wonder if they've added any more little ones to the family?

  :d. does anyone know whereabouts he is these days?

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  JW view of psychiatrists...

  by Fleur in

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  yesterday i was having a debate with my mother (who bucks the jw system by still talking to me even though i'm df'd, my parents are the only relatives who will see me) and she was going on about how the only people she ever knew who committed suicide had lost jehovah's holy spirit.

  she said the same thing of people who go on medication, that it's the same as drug use and that its opening the door for demons.. that was when i finally dropped the bomb on her, that i have been on anti-depressants on and off for more than 10 years.

  i have stopped taking them cold several times when i needed to (got pregnant, other reasons for another day) so they are not addictive.

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  A child's innocent questions about shunning

  by Fleur in

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  i wrote this about three years ago, i came across it today in some files and thought it was worth reposting for newbies.. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------.

  one night last week, my five year old daughter couldn't fall asleep.

  we could hear her upstairs as she tossed and turned a bit, then finally reappeared from her bedroom and crept down the stairs.

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  in memory of an old friend

  by Fleur in

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  shy man who was always trying so hard to do his best, at everything.

  "well, he was disfellowshipped about eight weeks ago.".

  in that time i got to know d well.

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  hey everybody! i'm not a christian anymore and i'm so happy about that lol

  by Fleur in

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  okay, this is interesting to me.. first a little bit of background on me, i was introduced to jw-ism as a zygote, raised in and baptized at the tender age of 12. i got baptized because my beloved grandfather had just passed away and i was told that if i wasn't baptized i wouldn't get to the new order and i wouldn't ever see him again.

  no pressure or anything.... i really truly believed everything for the first two decades of my life.

  really started doubting at 25, left at 26 (they df'd me even though i disassociated myself in a letter to the elders first).

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  An Esmerelda by any other name would still be just as screwed up.

  by Fleur in

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  i've lost old hotmail accounts and the old account info that went with them.

  but it is me, es, essie, esmerel/alda, in addition to anything else obscene i may be known by in these parts.. i just pounded this out in pure frustration.

  i'm probably going to get heckled for posting it but what the hell, there isn't anywhere else i can go where people will get this, and i can't keep it inside, it has got to go somewhere before my brain explodes.. so here it is.why did i go to that restaurant today?

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