by MerryMagdalene 124 Replies latest jw friends
Well, shit happens and we all move on, right?
That is what I should have said in my first post I guess. Yes, yes yes and yes to that. My entire point was not to devalue anyone's experience growing up a dub, rather to provide different experience, to encourage a moving forward and to not encourage a wallowing in it all, rather jump out of the shit fast and go get clean. Now you are my hero too. Jez
***Don't think I've ever been called a hero before!***
That is why I said it, every dog has his day. Today is yours.
I would have said nice things to you before but then I would have gotten shunned right off the board. Nobody likes you except me buddy. Sorry.
Dave
***I can't tell if he's being sarcastic or honest..lol.***
Get,
Saturdays are my days to be serious. The rest of the time I'm being sarcastic. It's a psychological problem I have. I got it from asking people if I could use their bathrooms out in service as a little kid. That was the only way I could watch Saturday morning cartoons. It's a living a double life kind'a thing. I never really had to go to the bathroom.
Dav
Nobody likes you except me buddy. Sorry.
Hahahaha! Now I'm crapping my pants.
And just to add... I'm the kind of geezer who doesn't care if anyone likes me or not, but the fact that you do, I take as a compliment. I'm lifting this drink to you!!!
***Now I'm crapping my pants. ***
That's why nobody likes you pal. You crap your pants when you post.
I lost my sense of smell back in my coke days so it's not that offensive to me.
Now back to dealing with the being socially retarded theme.
Dave
Merry,
I understand what you are saying in a big way. Growing up as a witness was just plain whacked. Our sense of what a real friend is is perverted because the only real friend that a faithful witness is allowed to have is the society. The society is the only friend because you are not at risk of losing them to immorality, or any of a myriad of human shortcomings, and not having them anymore. People are not viewed as permanent friends since they could screw up at any moment and you would be required by your own good little JW conscience to rat them out and lose them.
Knowing that makes it impossible for anyone who is conscientiously following the teachings to live the life Jez talks about and there were a lot of us. I really bought into their shit and could not be 'two people' like that. I knew people like that but would not have anything to do with them because they were not being loyal to "Jehovah" (read WTBTS). Therefore any friendships that I had within the congregation were very shallow. I had lost friends and did not want to risk the hurt anymore. (Jez please do not take offense since I am listing this as a previous jw belief system. At this point, I'm glad that you found a work-around)
I have carried this shallow, don't get too close to anyone, don't voice a strong opinion for fear of having it shot down because not everyone thinks the same as me attitude around for decades. It sucks and it's very lonely. It gets in the way of every relationship I have had. Fortunately, my husband has learned to draw me out, but not many have or ever will.
I am painfully shy in person and have chosen a line of work in which I have the law to back me so that there is not too much argument and I can voice an opinion which is based on a higher power and don't have to take the heat myself or alone. I come off as an aloof snotty bitch and and it stinks because I'm not that at all. I have just never learned how to 'come off properly' in social circumstances.
If you ever meet me you will see what I mean. I dress corporate, have a plastic smile, and sit and stand as stiff as a two-by-four. Everything has to be perfect and by the letter of the law. I feel like an emotional zombie and can trace most of my behaviors and attitudes back to the fear of being 'destroyed' at Armageddon for any little infraction. My hubbies most heard words are 'Geez, smile why don't ya!'
I am glad to know that others did not have it so rough as a witness kid, maybe some jw parents have a clue. But believe me, they weren't the norm.
Jeannie
I have carried this shallow, don't get too close to anyone, don't voice a strong opinion for fear of having it shot down....for decades...... It gets in the way of every relationship I have had.
I am painfully shy in person ...... I come off as an aloof snotty son of a bitch and and it stinks because I'm not that at all. I have just never learned how to 'come off properly' in social circumstances.
If you ever meet me you will see what I mean. I dress conservative, you'll never see me in a pair of sneakers, have a plastic smile, and sit and stand as stiff as a two-by-four. I'm almost like Mr. Roboto, carefully calculating almost every step, even if I slip and trip it has it's groundings in perfection, I mean that literally. Everything has to be perfect and by the letter of the law. I feel like an emotional zombie and can trace most of my behaviors and attitudes back to the perfectionistic people pleasing perspectives and guidelines. No room whatsoever for any little infraction, imagined or otherwise. I dont really know how to let myself go so I can have a good time, and I've seen myself turned lose on a few occasions, and you know what?, when I get from in front of myself, I'm actually a very fun person to be around, and no, alcohol is not part of the equation!!!
The above is a nearly word for word duplicate representation of how I too can relate to how you feel Jeanie Beanz, I feel as if cut from the same cloth, at least the same pattern, it's amazing the twisted mentality that come packaged in our shells.
Hell yeah, I am all for that aposta-lovefest deal Merry suggested! Hugs to Merry, Jeannie, Jez, and everybody else with battlewounds.
