bottleofwater
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Anywhere to download "In Search of Christian Freedom"
by bottleofwater ini seriously don't have the money to buy the ebook..
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How do you put a gag on feelings of fear when living outside the "truth"?
by bottleofwater injust asking..
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Gay JWs - how did you deal with your Kool-Aid drinking relatives?
by bottleofwater injust wondering.
i'm gonna need that soon.
i'm talking about advice.
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Anyone DF'd because of this site
by bottleofwater inhas anyone been df'd for visiting and/or posting to this site?
has anyone been df'd for visiting jwfacts or freeminds?.
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Me and my story... Issues, issues, issues
by bottleofwater inmy parents learned the truth when i was about 2 years old or so and they got baptized when i was 4.. they came from ukraine from the former soviet union and i was born months after they came to brooklyn.. they started studying with a sister who was american and joined the first russian group in brooklyn.. my brother was born when i was 5. we moved to staten island when i was 8 or 9.. ever since i was 14 or 15, i realized an attraction to guys.. of course, i kept on putting it off as a phase or an "everyone feels this way" excuse.. and yes, i had lots of crushes on guys, but i didn't tell others because it was hard to face the facts.. around 18 years of age, we were having our family study and my dad said that if a person even has gay thoughts then they can't be a pioneer, etc.. and he was an elder and a coordinator of the body of elders.. i got depressed and cried for days and eventually this got me to feel the need to tell someone about it.. i told my 14 year old brother (the other younger one is 7) about it because he keeps his mouth shut all the time.. he didn't react at all really.
eventually i felt like i had to tell my pioneer mom about it (by the way, i've been pioneering since 18 years of age due to knowing that that would be the only reason why my dad would pay for my college education).. she reacted with mixed feelings of denial, also attacking me and making it look like i'm disgusting, immoral, this and that.... eventually i told someone my age about this in my congregation, as he was also a neighbor of ours.
he was a bit more feminine acting, though i wasn't sure if he was gay or not (though the sisters had their rumors) (i'm more of the masc type it seems).
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How do I cut off pioneering?
by bottleofwater ini'm 19 and trying to get a job.
my dad won't pay for my college if i don't pioneer.. if i get a job, i can't pioneer while in college.. i can supposedly work and study, but i need a good way to get rid of pioneering (it was never my idea in the first place - blame the parents with their social coercion).. if i stop pioneering, i will be told by my parents that i don't love jehovah (not that i care what they say).. how can i do this as painlessly as possible?.
i want to move out someday and have enough money to do this.. by the way, if you read my started topics you will see my situation in more detail and that my dad is the coordinator of the boe..
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Get the elders to leave me alone!!
by bottleofwater inmy dad read something online that i posted and told the other elders (he's the boe coord.).
they've read me articles about homosexuality and tried to coerce me to stay with the family instead of living with my uncle for a week.
i went to my uncle's anyway.
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DA'd youth... How did your parents respond?
by bottleofwater ini'm wondering how any of your parents responded when you disassociated yourself with a letter.. should i do so?
i'm wondering how my parents will react since i'm moving in with my uncle just in time..
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December 2010 Awake Homosexuality
by bottleofwater inanyone have a good read of the ypa article on homosexuality?.
is it just me or is the doctrine becoming more lenient and less dogmatic?.
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